Struggling and Pushing

This has really been a difficult day. In part because of things relating to the previous post, but also because of the interview and the consequences of living purposefully innovative.

Problem with all that pushing is when you find those holes and bumps in the road. Things like plans not planned enough, or tools not sharp enough. When there’s not enough sunlight to let the good ideas grow, and at the same time you need to be sequestered in a mode of consistent focus and direction.

Its a struggle to push. Its a struggle to have the ideas and not see them become simple. That’s a constant struggle, because it contradicts the whole idea of being content in the moment given.

But, it really would be so nice if people read the manual; if projects completed on-time; if articles edited themselves; if time slowed down just enough during the good times that they wouldn’t be outweighed by the bad ones. It would be great if my mobile wasn’t just playing music, but creating it.

It would be… pushing against what comes normal and natural. Causing all kinds of struggle until a new normal is reached. And then some stimuli comes again to challenge the contentment – breaking me once again to simplify and consider that there’s a bar that’s yet to be reached.

And this is just Wednesday, just wait until the poetry drops later this week… what kind of struggle will be pushed out of my members then?